THE I. THE I. THE I.T.T.!!!! THE I. THE I. THE I.T.T.!!!
That was our college’s chant and I love it and I can’t stop doing it. It just gets me pumped up and I feel so much pride being a student at I.T. Tralee. I’ll try and keep this in as chronological an order as I can. I had to get up at 5am Thursday morning in order to get my dad to drive me to Tralee and for him to be back in time for his bus to work. I got to Tralee around half 6 and I went to Misty’s house to wait for the bus because it wouldn’t be there for about an hour. The college wouldn’t have been open that early so I had to wait somewhere. I also had make-up to finish doing that I didn’t have time to do at home. I showed her my only projects that I have finished which is a video for one of my modules that she would have done this time last year. She laughed at it a little which is what I initially hoped that the video would do so I was happy with that. She thought it was good though!! We walked up to the college shortly after that to wait for the bus. The chairperson of the music soc showed up at the same time and when we would get up to the event he was the first one of our societies up for an interview. We had no interviews luckily. I was sitting with Misty. We were in the 2nd last row of the small bus and we were in front of Music soc. I swear to God if I ever have to spend more than 2 minutes around them as a group I will scream. It was mostly one particular member of their soc more than others that really annoyed me. He doesn’t have an off button he will literally try to get with every and all beautiful women in sight. In the evening he even tried Misty even though they were talking on the bus about her boyfriend.He was also trying Jodi on the dance floor as well and was grinding up against her which was awks to watch.
When we got to the hotel we met our SU President who was giving us our hoodies and giving us our lunch and dinner tickets. Jodi and the other judges were having breakfast at the time so we walked over to them and sat with them for a while. They soon had to go off and do work so Dexter and I went looking around the hotel and went looking at where the spa and everything was. We were the only members of our society still in the hotel as our other society members went on a drive down to the nearby Tesco because there was some things they wanted to get and we needed them to get some little present and cards for Jodi and our societies officer. Those two have worked so hard over the last couple of months and helped us with our forms and making sure that they were up to BICS standard. We weren’t giving them the gifts until later on that evening so when everyone came back from the shop we put them into one of the lads rooms where Jodi and the societies officer wouldn’t see them. Then we had to rush downstairs for the BICS launch talk which was starting at 11. We made in down there at like 10 past 11, luckily the talk hadn’t started but there was no more seats so we had to stand at the back. I know we had to organise the gifts and stuff but couldn’t we have written the cards after the talk? I just really hate being late to things especially since Dexter and I were waiting around the hotel for the talk to start so we really should have been in there on time but we had to wait for the rest of our society members to come back. The talk went fine but the chairperson was seeing which colleges were there and each college has their own chant but at that point we didn’t know we had one. Apparently, on the bus ride to BICS we were supposed to be taught it but we weren’t. One of the girls who was already there as a judge for BICS who was from our college just yelled out the chant herself when I.T. Tralee were called out and none of us joined in. She was kind of annoyed afterwards I think. After this I think I went up to my room and Misty and Dexter went up with me and the girl who did the chant by herself who is the pretty campus tour guide from the first college blogs I did. I was staying with her and our societies officer. At one point I was supposed to be staying with Jodi but I knew that was not going to happen at all yet I got far too excited about the possibility of it only to be told that I was sharing with them and that we had to give away one of our rooms to UL because they were one room short. Fair enough but I mean of all the colleges to need a room like it was the Limerick college that needed it when we were staying in a Limerick hotel. I liked who I was staying with but the fact that I had been so excited about sharing with Jodi, I got did get really upset about it when I was initially told upon arrival.
For a while it was 4 of us in the room I was staying in and they were all talking while I just sat there and listened to them having a conversation. That’s another thing, I was being really quiet for the entirety of being at the BICS Awards. I didn’t really talk all that much to anyone not even to the people I knew. While we were in the room we listened to our old chairperson being interviewed on the radio at the radio station that he is doing his work placement for. Towards the end of his interview someone had snapchatted him telling him we were listening. So he said on the radio about us being at BICS and wished us good luck and that was probably the happiest I was during my day at BICS was when we were listening to that interview. The girl I was staying with and Dexter decided to go swimming so while they were gone I stayed with Misty in my room because she hadn’t gotten her room yet. She had to keep going down to the front desk because it was ages before it was ready. She kept saying that she needed a nap and she was lying on the bed on her phone at one point. She put her phone down in front of her and like 2 minutes later she was asleep. She slept for like 20 minutes or something. It was a bit before I actually knew she was asleep because I was just on my phone looking through Facebook. I left her sleeping because I thought it would probably be better that she got some sleep because the girl was up since half 5. Her phone kept going off with notifications from a group chat that someone had started for BICS and I kept thinking it was going to wake her. After it seemed like a while and I kind of wanted not to be sitting there by myself anymore I took a snap of her asleep and sent it to her. 1. To see if it would wake her up and 2. To see what noise the Snapchat notification would make. It worked though and it did wake her up.
One thing I do need to say about Misty is that if she wasn’t with me during the day I would’ve gone insane. We were outside at one point and I think I was standing with Jodi and Dexter and she came up behind me and put her hands over my glasses. I stood for like a minute before I moved her hands down to my shoulders and she hugged for ages. I just held onto her hands while she was hugging me. Forget what I said earlier, that was the happiest I felt during the day time at BICS. I don’t know why but it was like one of the most comforting hugs that I’d had in a long time and it just made me feel so happy. I didn’t see much of Jodi for the day or some of the night. She knows so many people from the other colleges and she’s kind of a big deal there. I knew that would happen though, I didn’t think I’d see her at all during my time at BICS. I spent a little bit of time with all my society members in one of the hotel rooms and we took pictures and our chairperson kept sending them onto BICS and they later appeared on the screens that were put up to show all the social media interactions with everyone who was there attending BICS.
I think this such a cute photo!! The rest of the day was fairly boring though and we spent most of our time in the hotel rooms. We didn’t have any interviews or presentations so we had nothing we had to do. I didn’t know we were allowed to go to watch other people’s presentations and if I had I would have gone and watched our MAG soc’s one as well as the other ones for that award category. It was my first time at BICS I didn’t know what was happening.
When it was time to get ready I had my first proper drink of the night which was a Captain Morgans and Fanta which I had in the room and I felt ok after it possibly the start of being tipsy but no major change really. I went down to the room Misty was in with the other girl from our society. I knocked on the door and when Misty opened it she actually looked shocked which was a reaction I was hoping for. She said I looked really good and gave me a hug. The lads were all in the room next door and we all took pictures in there together while we were all dressed up. We got downstairs and we got the table at the very back but at least all of Bang FM were together and we could see the stage fairly well. Our Awards were the 4th and 6th awards given out so they were early on. Publicity Campaign was first and that was large and small colleges combined and it went to DIT Fashion soc, they’re classified currently as a large college so had the awards been divided by size of college maybe we would have won. They also won best promotional video so they won two awards in a row. We weren’t too bad after losing that because we had higher hopes for the next award. The next award was for Best Mental Health Promoting Event and we got shortlisted as one of the final 3 after there was several events going for it. We were against NUI Galway and GMIT. From the get-go we knew that our real competition was going to be GMIT as NUI Galway’s one was a mental health week which most colleges do anyway and I think that the people who were doing that award wanted more creative and different kind of events. We were so sure that we would win that award but the lead up to that being announced was sooooo nerve wracking. I couldn’t even look up at the stage I had my head in my hand and my fingers crossed but Misty got my hand and while the first presenter was saying their speech about the judging process and the award. We had our elbows on the table and our fingers were interlocked and as I was getting more nervous I think I was squeezing her hand tighter. We both let go because we were applauding that part of the speech and then the second presenter who announces the winner was up. “And the winner is GMIT” I’m all about good sportsmanship and not being a sore loser but in that moment I lost all sense of my moral code. I just put my head in both my hands and was saying to myself “This isn’t happening. We deserved that award so much. I know they deserve it but so do we damnit!!! We so fucking deserve it” Also due to the many years I’ve spent crying I find it incredibly difficult to cry now, it’s impossible for me to express any sad emotion anymore through crying. Good from a make-up point of view bad from an expressive point of view. I then proceeded to cross my arms and put them on the table and put my head down because while I wasn’t crying I couldn’t compose myself I was a mental wreck. My society members kept telling me it was alright, it was over there was nothing we could do about it. It was the most disheartening thing I have ever experienced. We spent so much time on the different aspects of our event and so much time on those forms. I started getting severely low grades in CAs one of which I got back earlier this week which I did during the week where forms needed to be submitted for In House Awards aka the most stressful week of my entire life. Fuck the Leaving Cert that week nearly killed me. I looked upset for the next few awards and couldn’t really pay attention to them. Our SU President walked passed me at one point and he was like “Come on, cheer up!”
They had this photo booth place and I did not like nor did I get any photos that I want to see again. There was one person I wanted to get photos with, not even a selfie was taken. I wanted to ask her all night but I was too nervous at one point and then we were outside where it was way too dark to take any so I never asked her. I can’t really use the flash because it fucks with my glasses. At the photo booth place though they take 4 photos and they want you to change poses every time which I don’t know what to do I never pose for photos. Smiling in a photo takes a lot of my focus and effort trying to think of a pose freaked me out. Also the photos were taken so quick that I had no time to think of anything and I panicked. So when any of our college’s societies awards came up I started to pay attention again. Music soc were the 1st of our socs to win and our college hasn’t won a BICS Award since 2011. They won Most Improved Society in a small college. Our 3 tables cheered so loud and everyone was so happy and hugging their society members. We started doing our chant then as they went up to accept their award. When they came back down then people stood up and more of us went over and hugged and congratulated the society. Then a few awards went by including 2 related to Music soc which they didn’t win and a couple that MAG soc didn’t win. I don’t really think we were expecting to win another award merely because winning two awards in one night after not winning for 5 years is absolutely fucking insane. They were announcing Best Society In the Civic/Charity Field for a small college. We had our wonderful SVP Society going for that and there was this sponsor announcing the award who we met earlier on in the day because he had a stand with all this cool merchandise. When he said that IT Tralee won we cheered so much like even more than for the first award. I watched back the livestream and we were so loud even when it was just announcing nominees we were one of the louder groups when our college was mentioned. I was so overjoyed for them though they deserved it so much. I was in college for a few days over Easter doing some stuff for BICS and there were day everyday I was there and possibly the other days too. The people from their society are like the nicest people and I couldn’t be happier that they won. Our other societies are great but I was really rooting for them if anyone was winning an award other than our society it needed to be them. So 2 out of our 4 societies that attended BICS got awards. Which is great. All our societies put so much work into their forms and portfolios and what they did for their awards whether it was best event, best photo, whatever it was, there was a lot of work put into everything. We just had some tough competition that was all.
At the hotel we were given a lunch. We had a choice of chicken curry, vegetable curry or lasagne. I went with the chicken curry and it was nice. Later on then we had dinner before the awards and our starter and main course were both chicken. I know most people love chicken, as do I, but having it as a starter and main course is so excessive. The starter should be something light and different to the main course. I felt like my main course was just a continuation on of the starter. I had a glass of the white wine with the meal. I hate wine but it was free and I never had a full glass of wine before. I think this was when I started to feel a little sick. After the awards were finished I had a sip of this beer one of my friends had because I wanted to try it. I liked it when I drank it but I went to the bathroom shortly after that and I got sick and threw up my entire meal. I was worried that I would miss our group photo as a college. We were the 3rd last college but they were going through them fairly quickly and I was in the bathroom for a while. I needed to make sure I was done getting sick. I felt ok and didn’t feel like anything was going happen again so I got up went to the mirror to see how I looked. I looked a wreck my eyes were so watery but my make up still seemed ok. When I walked back out it was just about time for our photo so while we waited for the college before us to take their photo I double checked with Jodi to see if my make up was ok and she said it was fine. We took the photo and then I went and bought a 7up because I thought that water would make me sick again but I really needed a drink because my throat was hurting so much. I should probably mention that I went out for a cigarette right after all the awards were over. I ended having two because I was still upset and I would have had another but I wasn’t sure about how the order was for the college photos.Speaking of cigarettes I didn’t lose them this time. Except for my brand new box which fell out of my pocket when I was getting off the bus in Tralee. So I’m very annoyed about that. It’s probably a sign that I shouldn’t smoke but I’m buying another box this week I don’t care.
I told Misty I was sick and she sat down with me for a bit but she did want to go dancing so we moved closer to the dance floor and then she went out dancing and tried to get me to go out there too. I did but I wasn’t out there for too long and I just went and sat back down.It sucked too because the band was actually good. The song they started with was the Friends theme “I’ll Be There For You” and I saw our chairperson Dexter and while that was on I went over and gave him a hug. I saw on the group chat that the rest of our college was over by the photo booth and I saw some of them so I tried to jump in and Jodi was like “Sandra it’s a student rep. photo!!” So I just moved out of the way again and stood at the side pretending to be upset because I thought it would be funny because I was trying to find a way to laugh off my embarrassment. Because that was embarrassing. Afterwards I was trying to be funny so when Jodi walked over to me afterwards I was like “Soz” and I never say that word. She said she could feel me getting into the photo and in her mind was like “No,No, don’t!” Sure enough that didn’t make me feel any better and just made me feel even more embarrassed so I just kept trying to be funny. She collected her photos and I was like ” I just wanted to be a part of something” in a fake upset voice. Shortly after this I went outside for a cigarette again and I think I had two again. This time though Dexter came outside with our gifts that we were giving to Jodi and our societies officer. We gave them both a small mini box of Celebrations and a card each. We also gave the societies officer flowers. It wasn’t my idea and I didn’t go with the few members to the shop to pick the stuff out but I was so glad we were giving them something. They both did so much work and they helped everyone, not just us, so much with our forms and problems. I went over to Jodi afterwards and said did she like what we got her because it was a collective thing from Bang FM. She was so excited and so happy that she got something. Ok when I went over to her I wasn’t drunk because I was practically 100% sober the entire night. I was however on a bit of a nicotine buzz which does make me feel a little tipsy. This doesn’t change anything that I then said to her but I just thought I would preface it. I said “Well you deserve it. Actually you deserve more, you deserve everything. You helped us so much with all our BICS stuff and you just deserve everything good!” I think I hugged her then. Then I continued on with “And that is why I’m getting you those great birthday presents that I was talking to you about the other day.” She was like “No I want you to make me something. I want a Sandra present!!” So I told her “Fine I’ll get you all those other things and a Sandra present!!” I was going to try and give her our presents before we go off on our summer holidays but I’m looking up what I could make her and I’m afraid they could be time consuming. That’s not the problem it’s just I can’t do something that’s too time consuming now because I have projects to do for college. Luckily her birthday isn’t until July so I actually do have time and I’m sure she’ll gladly meet up with me over summer and especially if I have presents. She wants me to make her a wand but if I was doing that I would love to try and carve one out of wood but unless I can find a doable way for me to do that I think I have to abandon that idea. I have come up with an idea for a gift, it’s extremely gay, after looking up suggestions though!! Anyways back to the actual event.
I was still feeling sick for most of the night. So at around half 12 I went outside for a cigarette and first of all I just sat down on a seat out there for a while then I went around more towards the front of the hotel to be a little bit hidden away from the people in the smoking area. I sat on a low down window ledge and smoked and had a drink with me. I got a Captain Morgan’s and orange after the 7up because I was feeling a little better but it took me like an hour to drink it so I don’t think I was really better. I sat outside smoking my cigarette but I wasn’t feeling well so I didn’t even smoke properly I just blew out all the smoke immediately and didn’t try inhaling any of it at all. When I was finished I just sat there for ages and it was kind of dark where I was and all the outdoor lights that were on were where everyone else was. I just sat there looking at my phone wondering if anyone noticed I had gone. How long would I have to stay here before someone got concerned? I thought I was there long enough. I stayed there until about one and then I found someone who I was staying with and asked for the room key. I thought it would be better if I just went up to the room. I was walking out of the function room, and I saw Dexter in the lobby and told him I was going to my room. He asked me why and if I was alright. I told him “I just don’t see any reason for me to be down here anymore.” He asked why and I just told him I was sick and I didn’t want to be downstairs anymore. As I was about to walk away Jodi was there. I think she was just in her room because her hair was tied up and I think she had taken off her necklace. Usually I’m always super excited to see her and no matter how many times a day I say hi to her I always have a huge smile on my face. This time I just about mustered up a very weak “Hi” and I struggled but managed to give a quick smile. She was like “are you ok?” and I just didn’t want to make it really dramatic so all I told her was “I’m going up to my room” and I walked away. I got up to the floor I was staying on and saw the other girl I was staying with waiting at the elevator and she had just changed out of her dress and was going back down. She looked at me confused and asked “Why are you going back to the room?” and I told her what I told Dexter that I didn’t see a reason to stay down there. She looked at me still confused and I just said “Yeah I’m just feeling sick, enjoy the rest of your night though!!” Then I walked off again towards the room. I went in and took out this little notebook that I brought with me and wrote in that for 45 minutes about how bad the night was going for me. Like it’s better than sitting down and ruining someone else’s night with telling them why my night was going shit.
My friend started snapchatting me which did make me feel better alongside the writing. I wrote 5 A5 pages about the night. Tried to cut myself using the plastic on the name-tags from the lanyards we got. I got a couple of proper scratches but no one has seen them and they’re nearly faded away at this point. It was only a matter of time before something like that happened, it’s one of the reasons I started smoking when I did. Another reason being all the dresses I was wearing to these things were sleeveless so I couldn’t have any marks on my arms for them. That was my last event so I thought I might as well. I changed into my converse because I thought being out of heels might brighten my mood in some way. I went back down stairs and as soon as I walked into the function room and I saw Jodi immediately and I started walking over to her and she was like “Are you ok? Dexter said you went off in a bit of a huff?” I told her that I just wasn’t having a good time and I went upstairs and wrote for the last while. She was like “Good I know that’ll help you a lot. From what I know about you and from reading your blogs I can see that it does help you!!” I was talking to her for a few minutes and while I wasn’t feeling completely better I did feel a bit back to my usual self. So while we were talking I started smiling a lot more because I just always do when I’m around Jodi. She noticed how much more I was smiling and said “See I need more of this. You smiling you’re definitely feeling a little better than you were earlier. You being happy and smiling and just knowing that you’re not sad is one of the most important things to me.” Since I can’t express any sort of emotion through crying happy tears are hard for me to do anymore unless I’m laughing profusely. So had I the ability I would’ve cried all of the happy tears right then and there. She was like “I know this all sounds a bit gay…” This is the first time I’d ever heard her describe something as gay so that just made me laugh because usually I’m the one that would be saying things like this and calling it gay sometimes. I interrupted her before she could say anything else about it. I was like “Awh, maybe it is but it’s really sweet.” I was kind of laughing a bit while she had been saying everything and she goes “You’re laughing because you think this is just some drunk thing, like it’s actually not I’m no where near being at that stage yet I want to be but I’m not. Look everyone who’s here cares about you and we will help you with anything. Now let’s try and make this night better for you.” I just hugged her as soon as she finished talking. Internally I was so emotional that I just couldn’t express it externally other than a hug being like “thank you.” This ladies and gentleman is why she will make the perfect Welfare officer for the 2017/2018 IT Tralee SU. She cares so much about everyone. I was watching a video of someone explaining what being Welfare officer means and one of the things they said was to be someone who is easily approachable. I never talked to Jodi much last semester. I was sitting in on a radio show and she was on it one day and I could not stop laughing and we were on radio so I couldn’t laugh out loud I actually thought I was going to explode trying to quiet laugh but I’m kind of an expert of it at this point. I always thought that only this elite group could be her friends and that she was too cool that any of us first years couldn’t possibly become friends with her. Everyone calls her by the shortened version of her name so whenever I was talking about a funny thing I heard her saying to the other first years, I would look around before saying her name. This was in case any of her friends in the above years heard me because I thought that since I wasn’t friends with her that I couldn’t call her by the shortened name. So this semester when I actually started talking to her when all her 3rd year friends were gone on placement I realised how approachable and easy to talk to she actually is.
So back to BICS, sorry I keep going off track but these things I keep going to need to be said. After I continued to talk to her a bit I went and got some water at the bar and when I walked back over Misty was there I thought she might have been gone to bed. She was flaming though. When she walked away I got a hug from our current SU President and he was “Sandra, you’re great I think you’re just a great person.” While he was hugging me I was looking at Jodi and mouthing “What the fuck?” When he stopped hugging me Jodi went over to me and was like “He never compliments anyone, this is a big deal!” He was looking at her and was just like “What are you telling her? Something bad about me?” She just told him what she said and he just agreed with her. We went outside for a cigarette and I’m not sure when I met the people from the different colleges but I seemed to meet someone new every time I went outside to the smoking area which I knew would happen which is why I made sure I had enough cigarettes for BICS. I only met and started to talk to people from the different colleges when I was with Jodi. I don’t think I met anyone that time. I think we sat with the societies officer and some other Tralee people. When we finished up Jodi was like “Come on Sandra we’ve got to go dance!!” I look at her very reluctant to go dancing because I don’t dance when I’m sober. Until then!! Why I am I so easily convinced? The first, or one of the first songs that came on was ‘Ugly Heart’ by G.R.L. and I was dancing with Jodi for a a bit of that song and the chorus came on and it goes “Ok you’re pretty, your face is a work of art” so she pretended to like frame my face as if it were a piece of art. Then the next line is “Your smile could light up New York city after dark” She got very excited at that line after talking about me smiling earlier. So she just pointed at me for that line and I had the biggest smile on my face just cause I just thought was so cute and it made me so happy. (Currently listening to that song to bring back all the feels and also to make sure I write the right lyrics down.)
There was a few more songs then I think we went outside for another cigarette and I met a guy from CIT who was lovely. I really liked him. I saw him leaving the next day and he was talking to Jodi while we were walking away and I was like “Byeee” He said bye back. I need to meet more of these other colleges. We went back in and we were dancing to a few songs and then the very beginning of Lush Life by Zara Larsson came on and me and Jodi just looked at each other, because I knew this song really well and obviously she did too. The fact that we both looked at each other when the song came on even though we were a bit away from each other and kind of dancing with other people. She looked at me and was like “This is our song!!” So we have a song now I guess!! The way she was dancing to this song though gives me life, she was so happy dancing to it. Then Cheap Thrills came on and I love that song so I was happy. Also throughout the entire time that we were on the dance floor this guy from one of the other colleges who was really drunk was just dancing around with us and trying to dance with everyone including me. Had I been drunk I would have been fine because I danced with random guys when I was at a nightclub in Limerick like 3 weeks ago when I was drunk. Anyways a committee member from SVP soc helped keep him away from me the whole time because she could tell I didn’t like when he came over to me. If he was next to me she’d move over and go between us and I was dancing with her for a bit like we’d be going back to back and dance to the beat one way and then turn back to each other.
We went outside again and this time Jodi decided to talk to a light. There was this light outside that kept flickering and it eventually turned off an she thought it was a sensor light so she was jumping around in front and waving her hand in front of it. At one point she was crouching down next to it and was asking it to turn on. I have a small video from when she was doing that but I’ll be nice and not include it in here. She did not want to leave the light until it would turn on. When she finally stood back up and walked back to the table, she was facing away from the light and I saw it flash. I told her it flashed and she turned around immediately and ran back to over to the light and then back to me and was like “Sandra are you serious? Don’t joke with me now this is really important!” I told her I wasn’t lying but nothing happened with the light after that so we just left it. We went back in and danced then until the last song. The societies officer hugged me at one point and was like “This is my Best First Year” because that was the name of the in house award I won the week before. After the last song the DJ was packing up and we went outside for another cigarette. We went over to the small kids playground that was outside the front of the hotel with some guys from another college who I didn’t know but I think Jodi did. I think it was at that point we were with the P.R.O. of BICS who was from IT Tallaght. He was amazing I really liked him. We then went looking for rooms where there was parties on in. I can’t remember how the order of things went so I just throw it all together in an order that makes some sense.
The bar in the function room was being closed so we had to move to the other bar and Jodi ended up seeing one of the people she knows from IT Tallaght, also know as the other ITT. This girl comes up a lot in this story but I don’t know how much I’d be writing about her in the future so I don’t want to waste an hour trying to pick a name for her so I’ll call her something I called her early yesterday morning. So for these blogs her name shall be Hedgehog. So I saw Jodi and Hedgehog walk out of the bar but I didn’t follow them straight away because I don’t know how much Jodi had seen of her and thought they might be catching up. I went out shortly after though in the event that she would leave or go outside. I was going out of the bar but they had the door locked so I had to wait for the bar man to open it. When I went out then Jodi was there with some people from Tallaght and I walked over to her and she lightly grabbed my arm and was like “Good you made it out of there.” We started talking to one of the girls from Tallaght who was a member of ITTFM and she was so nice. All the people from Tallaght were so cool, which I hate saying but they were. Anyways she went outside to the playground with Jess, Hedgehog and I where she went on the normal swing and Hedgehog tried sitting and swinging on the baby swing. I think the guy from CIT was with us again. Jodi and I just sat down on a wooden stand which she thought was covering like a hole into the ground and thought she’d fall through. Hedgehog was talking about I think at Congress how she was telling everyone she went to China, this came up a few more times in the night. We were outside for a bit and then we went upstairs to Jodi’s room because her and who she was staying with, our current Welfare officer, wanted to change their clothes. I met another person I believe she was also from Tallaght. I don’t know much about her other than her name and the fact that she’s a lesbian. She was also lovely though.
We were going up to the 3rd floor to go to one of the rooms that there was a party on in. I thought since it was a bigger room that there would be a load of people in there so I went back to my room which was on the same floor. I put on my hoodie thought about it again and walked back to the room that the party was in. I was knocking on the door for a little bit I could hear people that I knew talking and laughing and when the door eventually was opened the first thing I saw was our current SU President pointing a hair dryer at his crotch because he had spilled something on it. I walked in and he pointed the hair dryer then at my head and was like “New hairstyle” I just stood there while my hair went all over the place. We left that “party” and walked downstairs and I was complaining about someone who I thought was vile and I just don’t like him and he was trying to get with everyone. Our SU President was like, “what you don’t like him? I don’t think he’s that bad.” I said “I just think he’s too forward.” Then he says “With your make-up like that and what you just said you remind me of a character from and animated movie and I can’t tell you because it might offend you.” He never told me but I did get out of him that the film was Inside Out and the only character I think he could be talking about would be Disgust because she wears make-up and I was pretty much saying how disgusting I find that guy.
I really can’t remember what happened next but eventually Jodi, Hedgehog, our current Welfare officer and I went up to Jodi’s room and stayed talking for a few hours. I didn’t do much talking I just sat there and listened which I did a lot. I think that’s what I was doing all day really because I just wanted to listen to people talk about their societies, their colleges and hear their opinions on student politics. I’ve started to find all this student politics stuff so interesting and I think a protest is coming up shortly and I’m really excited to see what being a part of a protest is like if I can be a part of it. Anyways while we were in their hotel room they were all lying on the bed and I just sat at the end because there was no room but that was fine. They were talking about all kinds of things like about Tallaght and then about some stuff from Congress and some people in student union’s and how they should be focused on the interests of the students instead of their own personal gain. At one point Hedgehog went off on this big long speech about student politics and it was so interesting and easy to listen to even when I had been up for just over 24 hours. At one point while they were talking, I started to feel really tired and my eyes kept closing. So Jodi eventually saw me and was like “Sandra don’t fall asleep, go to bed” I replied with no and sat up a little and after that I was a little more awake. I felt like when I was a kid and I wanted to stay up late past my bedtime and just hear all the grown ups talking! At one point too Jodi was just like “Can we all just take a minute to appreciate Sandra, and how even though she went up to her room and felt like she was having a terrible night she made it back downstairs and had a great time.” Hedgehog was like “Yay Sandra!!” Jodi said “I’m so happy that you went back downstairs I would hate to you to go away from BICS and only think negatively of it! You went out there and you had fun because I made you!” I was like “Yes Jodi, I had a great night and it really is all thanks to you!” Breakfast was starting to be served at half 6 and we were up for so long talking that we decided we would get breakfast and then take a nap. There was a lot of stuff to choose from for breakfast to be fair. I got two slices of toast and two sausages. I ate one of each which for me isn’t bad because I never have breakfast and I went off sausages a couple of years ago. I also got a mini chocolate muffin as a reward to myself for my attempt at eating breakfast but I didn’t eat that until after my nap. While we were having breakfast Jodi had mushrooms. Right so she stuck her fork into one of the one of them picked it up and looked at it and her plate and said “There’s not mush room left on this plate for more food.” I put my head in my hand and was like “For fuck sake” and I just started laughing. She spent like the entire time we were down there just kind of laughing at her food for no reason I think it was the drunkenness from the night catching up with her. We went out for a cigarette after breakfast. Something that Hedgehog had been on about in all the talking back in the room was how she didn’t get a hoodie like the rest of the people from her college because they never ordered her one. She mentioned this a couple of times. So while we outside Jodi was like “I heard you didn’t get a hoodie.” Then before she could get to it I was like “Hey I heard you were in China.” That made Jodi laugh she was like “Yes she’s learning, I was going to make a joke about that!” Jodi then said something about Hedgehog’s hair feeling prickly and said it was like a cactus but I instead said she was like a hedgehog, hence where her name in these blogs has come from. I think Jodi laughed and Hedgehog was like “That hurt. Sandra I really thought we were going to become friends.” I know she was saying it as a joke but what’s wrong with hedgehogs their actually really cute as was she. Also Sonic the Hedgehog is one of my favourite video game characters, I mean come on people!! I remembered one of the theme songs for one of the Sonic the Hedgehog cartoons and I replaced Sonic’s name with her actual name and sang the song it just makes me happy.
We went back inside and Hedgehog went back with Jodi to her room and I decided I would go back to my room because I hadn’t been there for a long time and I knew the two people I was staying with were there. I walked in and our societies officer woke and was like “Is that you Sandra?” Bear in mind it was 8am and they had no clue where I was and they last saw me over 4 hours before that. I think I slept for about an hour. Luckily everyone started getting up because they were going to the pool which was good for me because it gave me time to pack and get dressed because I stayed in my dress the whole night and wore it to breakfast. When we were checking out of the hotel all of us who were left went over to the playground and took a group picture of us all wearing college societies hoodies we got especially for BICS.
Also something I wanted to mention was that Jodi said at breakfast and earlier on in a conversation that me and a girl from a different society were trying to follow in her footsteps and do what she does. I said “I’m doing better though right?” I actually thought that I was and expected to get affirmation about it. She said “Well no not really, I mean she wants to work in the societies office next year.” Like hello?? She has work placement next year, I don’t. Of course I want to work in the office when it’s my work placement year. Also as much as I have started to become like her a bit. One thing being in my speech how I’ve started saying “Girl” and I think after spending so many hours with her at BICS I’ve started saying “Rage!” Also I’ve started saying for fuck sake in the very Kerry way she says it. There is still a lot of things different about me, somethings lovable, some not. If I got to be too like her I doubt she’d hang out with me because nobody likes a complete copy cat. Also today I was in Tesco and I was wearing my college socs hoodie from BICS and I heard someone go “Nice hoodie Sandra.” I didn’t recognise the voice straight away so I was turning around and saying thanks and when I saw who it was I froze for a second. Then I had a huge smile on my face and ran and hugged her. It was one of the 3rd years who’s been on work placement who I hadn’t seen since the start of February. I’ve literally being saying for the last like 2 weeks that I missed her and then she just appears today. She was asking me about BICS because she had been there the year before. I gave a brief thing about how it went. Found out that she’ll be in Killarney for the summer she just needs to find a place to stay but it means I’ll be seeing her around. Now all I’ve got to do is to find a job!!